13th May, that's the date I last wrote down something here..its been a while..now its like the end of June. Geeezzzz...
A lot has happened in this one month. I am experiencing some level of happiness layered with some stress cum sadness cum problems. Well its not that bad, I still can smile when I think of the little happiness I am getting..feeling on cloud nine simply missed it...but I am also prepared to face the heart break..well no pain no gain so shall I say no gain no pain hahaha...well that's life.
I feel I am ok now. I am back to being myself again.Spiritually, emotionally and mentally stronger...sometimes I am just not sure if I have face it anymore but it's something I have to face.
Dads situation is much better now, but once in a while he does get sick..it comes back...but he is fighting it living it...it may be different but as long as he is trying it. Surprisingly he who has been smoking for 45 years, just stopped. Just one thing is he speaks more nowadays. Just too much.
Work has also been stressful, I am looking for an exit as we came to know that there wouldn't be any salary review or increment for the staff. It has been totally unfair especially for us who have been striving to keep the channel alive for the past year with whatever little facilities we were provided. Surely it's time to leave. I am hoping for a call soon...Ya Allah please help me, I need a fast exit for a better future and security.
With all this stress, I have also planned a vacation to Penang among our cousins. Even this wasn't easy. This could be our last and only vacation together as its not been easy to please everyone. Some one did get hurt but who said life was easy. Usually its never one gets everything, so this is one of the case. Some did get misunderstood and blame it on me, even after explaining they wouldn't understand then who to be blamed I can just smile and wait for them to realize that my decision was right. Pray and hope everything goes well and fine..most important is for us to have fun together. Finally tomorrow...the day has come..now is for us to go live it...and face whatever it may be like...what ever will be will be....
